issues with myself

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today i was in a very weird mood...

dont know why... but i just was like this...

i asked myself... what kind of person am i...
i could count tons of negative characteristics...
but... positive ones... i dont know any...
i dont even know how my bf can love me..
whats about me he likes... (he doesnt know either) .. he just loves me
you might think its enough...
but its bad for my self-confidence...
i cant define myself over him...
i dont even like myself...

^__^ i figured if you think positive at everything you live longer...

(positive) i mean like if you do something stupid (anything) you can say, well that wont happen again i was just unlucky

(negative) or i was lucky, gotta make sure i wont do the same

thats the diffrence, i think o.o

o.o well in that case gaara, thinking positivly does seem to lower your chances of survival?

i..wouldnt think so marq o.o;

lol
i have to agree with marq

the way gaara stated it ... it sounds like he would do the same fault all over again thinking it was just bad luck

True I didn't think of it that way o.o;

im kinda being depressed again ...
>_>

awww why r u depressed..??

its the stress and maybe something else i dont know
+ i need vacation x.x

Well that would be best *smiles* vacations make u feel brand new again and relieved of all the stress ^^

i hope i will gett some soon

but the next opportunity is crippled because of some event we have to attend x.x

Wow it must be important then..what's the event do u know?

not really
its just some thing everyone needs to be there
not even sure if they check if youre really there or not
but youre not allowed to take vacation if there is something that you actually have to attend

I'm not surprised..*shakes head* as unfair as that is its to be expected

yeah im a bit overworked